Life-Trials-Outcomes

Warning.... this isn't a very happy post so don't continue if you would rather be uplifted.
You know it's amazing to me how things in life go. How you can read other people's blogs, see old friends/family or just people in general on a weekly basis, etc. and see how their life is (of course most people don't show you how their life is REALLY going). And sometimes seeing others and how good their lives are can make  a person envious or have pity on themselves.
I try to not to let myself become too jealous or envious or pity myself. I try to remind myself that I am very blessed and as long as I am doing what I know is right, I will continue to be blessed. We all have our trials and apparently these are mine. But right now I cannot help but feel down. We had plans-goals. We started the initial plan but instead of things working out as we expected or even close things went the complete opposite direction. Nothing has worked out like we were hoping/wanting. Now we know that things will come with opposition and problems, but usually you can expect that when you work towards something you can eventually get there. Well why hasn't it happened. Why does it only seem to get a tiny little better... it feels like we try and take a step forward and we end up with 3-5 steps backward. How can we make any progress? Ever?
I just feel like nothing is ever going to work out. When we think things are finally turning around and some good things are happening and possibly going to continue, those good things that are happening get weighed down with not so good things. Now don't get me wrong I am so grateful for my life, for my family, and for everything I do have... I truly am so blessed!!! I continue to be grateful for that everyday. This is just my rantings on things that aren't working out right now. Sorry for the negative post. I know one day life will just be too good and as much as I can't wait for that day to come, I obviously have a lot to learn from the trials I am going through now.

Swimming

So I have slacked off. We've had my sister, Amy, down with us for the last couple of weeks. I'm sure she's bored, but she seems to be alright most of the time. Her first week here we were able to rent the pool for a couple of hours one night. Everyone loved it! It was a little cooler than normal and by 9 pm the wind had picked up a little so it was really chilly getting out, but otherwise it was so nice!!! (Well other than the fact I had to get out a few times to go pee) Amy loved it. Was diving or playing with Brooke. And oh I was so excited, until more people started showing up, Mike and I were able to get Brooke to swim a little with her life jacket on. I brought my camera but I didn't take pictures before I got in or any of the times I got out, so no pics this post. We can't wait to go again as usual!

Some Water Fun

So it has been amazingly HOT down here the past 4 or 5 days, hot like 80s up to 90s hot!! Well to me that is amazingly hot, to my husband it's nice. Saturday it was 87 I think and we thought it would be fun for Brooke to run through sprinklers. Since our yard, has yet to grow a good amount of grass (no matter how many times we plant seed)it would just be a mud hole so we went to Mike's parents. They have this fun little water toy she ran through. Here are some pics from Saturday and then again on Sunday after her grandma and grandpa bought a slip'n'slide too. Brooke now thinks they have a water park, lol. She was so mad when I made her quit so we could go to a birthday party. And as soon as we were back she changed back into her swimsuit and went for more. She loves the water.....Now if only she would learn to swim!!!

Belly Pics

So for those of you who really want to see my big 'ol belly.....Here it is. Well sort of. Brooke took these pics the other night after her sprinkler fun. I'm sitting down, but here it is. Some days I look really really big and others I look small. Lol I also get both reactions from people!! But she pretty well fills out my belly from top to bottom and moves around a LOT! So as long as she is happy. At my last appointment and ultrasound she already measured a week ahead (Brooke didn't until the last month).